why do we do all of this stuff lol what's the point... self fulfillment i guess.

I have been completely inactive because in the fall i started architecture school and it has sucked the life out of me. I have had no free time, however once i have a long break like just occured over christmas i don't know what to do with myself and become bored with everything..... which is why i am now working on astral projecting!!! lol so far i've gotten really intense vibrations once and was really really close to detaching from my body. I tried again today but no luck with getting vibrations i guess i couldn't really focus.

no time to paint, no motivation to do art.

architecture enjoys destroying our lives so much that they are making/made us do 35 hand drawings over break which is an insane amount, and we are supposed to spend about 30 minutes on each. ahhh! procrastination!! i go back on monday... im halfway done with the hands. i really don't want to have to go back to having no free time.

matame ahora

Nope nope nope, no motivation for me!

Anyways, about my trip... We flew into mexico city,
and stayed there for 4 days not doing much but we saw
Teotihuacan which was wonderfully boring but slightly
cool. We flew to Oaxaca which is like a poor, mexican
version of asheville... it was really nice. While i
was there I saw some more boring ruins, but the whole
experience was fun nonetheless. Next we flew on a 12
person one propeller airplane (woohoo) to Puerto
Escondido which is a small beach bum town and was
really nice. We stayed there for 4 days and did
nothing. We flew back to Mexico City and stayed there
for a night. The next day we flew to the dallas
airport and had a 6 hour layover (fun) and then flew
home. Overall it was fun and a good experience.


I start college in two weeks... I don't want to go.
I don't want to have to do all of the work i'm going
to have. I don't want to have to live on my own. I
don't want to but I know that once I get there I will
enjoy it... so theres no point in not wanting to go
but I still don't want to.


I have no motivation. I know that if i started a
painting, which would be very easily, I would become
motivated, but the problem is that I don't even feel
like starting anything. I should though... because
once I get to college I won't be able to paint any
except on breaks because architecture will be eating my life.


This is my current predicament

So I got back from mexico. It was really cool, but I'm sooo glad to be back. Hopefully I'll get off my lethargic butt and paint some stuff from there.

I leave for mexico tomorrow
but im going down to the
airport today in a couple of hours

I hope that i come back alive
and without some disease and
not in 10 years, I have somewhat
freaked myself out about
the dangers in Mexico.

It should be a good experience
and I hope it gives me
some creativity.
I will draw some while I
am there and take some photos
which should be nice. I hope
I can find something to do there.

So the flight leaves tomorrow
on the 7th and I am coming back
hopefully in 2 weeks on the 21st.


this is goodbye for now and
hopefully not forever

Graduation was fine, and it still hasn't
hit me yet that I am not in high school
anymore. I don't think I am ever going to
grow up. I don't want to.

mmmmmmm..... colllege.......


I went to Orientation a few days ago and it
was cool, but I hate big social situations
like that, and I had to almost put on a fake
social personality to survive. So many
people, but I became friends with the people
in my group (architecture people) and they
are cool. Registering for classes was a pain.

I am a little more excited about going to
college than I was before; hopefully it is
alright.

So yeah, I am now officially a college
freshman.


On another note, I am going to Mexico on July
7th for 2 weeks!! It should be fun, except
that i'm just going with my mom and my dad..
but thats ok.


I haven't painted anything lately.... I have
gotten to the verge of painting something and
I am overwhelmed with lethargy. Hopefully I
can overcome this laziness soon.


Gordon